blowing

my nose into a napkin that had things written on it probably wasn't the smartest thing that i have done this morning. other than that, the battling of trying to stop things before they become habit and the norm is taking a toll on me. i really don't know what to do. if i take it lightly, then it won't be thought about and will most likely happen again and there i am miserable and upset and further away from getting it as a whole resolved, but if i stick up for myself and try to hold on to some dignity, well then it gets escalated and out of control. then i end up the bad one when all i was trying to do was say "hey, i'm not the bad one! i just got here! i don't deserve this arrest!" i'm afraid of what might grow if i just take it and move on without disputing it. on the work front, a customer that always wants information from me within minutes is just now looking at reports that i sent them in late 2003 - early 2004. my kind words to them next time they need the report within minutes is "FUCK OFF". my hands have a slight bleach smell to them and i can't figure out where it came from. i'm going to blame the lotion.

tra

la, la, la, la little big man hurt his back and went to the doctor. he could get medicine and be gone for days, weeks, months! or he could be back in an hour, either way after his parading around the office yesterday all fired up, angry and hitting things, one minute of him being out of the building is pure pleasure. things have been so busy lately that the girl hasn't even been able to give me my one year review. i have hers all charted and graphed, but i will have to wait till next week maybe. on our actual anniversary, her car broke down and we did that whole thing with a dinner between pick ups and car swapping. last night i went all crazy cleaning the house for big al and kimono's arrival. all i have left is the bathroom and the dreaded five loads of laundry to fold. i'll chug some mountain dew and get on that or i'll just shove it in the closet and shut the door. hmmmm......tempting. brainstorming always finds the answer. this morning a cop was flying down the highway in all of his get out of the way glory and i jumped behind him (plenty of room between us) because he was doing a fine job of clearing a path for me. then he hit an exit and turned all of his stuff off and went up the ramp like normal. nice.

vans

should just come with a bumper that says "there is a large gap in traffic in front of me even though there is no way that you can see it. even though we are in the passing lane, i will not be passing anyone soon and for that matter, the lane of people that i am suppose to be passing at this time can see the gap and are actually passing me. you will not be able to pass me because the lane beside us is whipping past us with no gaps due to the excitement of getting to enjoy the large gap that i have already stated is in front of me and alas will always stay the same no matter how many people fill it due to my constant braking everytime i come within 1/4 mile of the vehicle in front of me. thank you and praise jesus, 4 more years, save the eggs, kill the people who fell through the system cracks, send more troops, speak english or leave and questioning the media or government is treason."

leftover

lasagna is always a treat. i'll eat it warm or cold. i don't care. it's good either way. the real advantage to eating it cold is that i don't burn myself, which i just did. it's a roof of the mouth in the back burn. a few days ago the girl and i grabbed a bit to eat at some bus stop grease pit. it was a long narrow room. right behind the order taker was the cook and the grill. literally right behind. they would both have to turn sideways to pass each other. when we were giving our order it was quite obvious that the cook could hear us too since he was just as close, but the order taker actually yelled back the order to him. he just stared off into space since this surely happens all of the time and will never stop. little big man told his wife "happy thanksgiving" yesterday. i think he needs to take a vacation. that would benefit everyone. no fingers man wrote envirement on a board for everyone to see today and he wrote everything before the meeting so it wasn't a time/under pressure thing. i think i'll spend the rest of the day trying to determine the thread count of the material on my cube wall.

happy

valentimes day. yep, i said it like that for years. i'm not sure why. r&b michelle reminds me of it every year. i had to practice saying it right and by our senior year, i was on track. friday night the girl and i went to a movie and she was balling during it. due to cosmic events that i can not control, she ended up making fun of me all night for not crying instead of me making fun of her. that is so not right. then we rushed home to exchange gifts that we were actually suppose to give each other today, but it was close enough. i look very stylish in my new jacket and pants. they are a mixture of my favorites - puma and green, so you can't go wrong. she scored on the sizes too and yes she moved the damn things after i figured out that they were in the closet. i bestowed upon her the 3 most important things in life. video game, dvd and cd. the video game is some shoot 'em up bang, bang called mercenaries something, the dvd turned out to be one that we already had (ooops) and the cd was a guilty pleasure that will go unnamed that i sacrificed my rep on to go into the store to get it so she wouldn't have to. i use to make my nieces do that for me with the spice girls. (hey, that is some genius bubble gum pop and i enjoy all the genres - i'll fight you for bad words about them) i would take them shopping with me and then i would have them walk around with the cd or movie and when we got to the check out they would plop it on the counter and i would say something like "i guess i'll get you that, but we'll have to skip the movie then". heh. then i would have to take them to a movie as payment for the deed. i just got out of an hour long meeting where i could see trains go by and i spent the time trying to figure out if you double stack semi trailers, if shipping would be faster and cheaper in a huge bulk. then we could get rid of all the damn semis taking up the highway and blocking all the lanes. a problem would occur when you needed to distribute on a smaller scale, but at least i had something to think about. the only thing i learned during the meeting is that no fingers man is wearing patterned socks, but one of them is on inside out.

r&b michelle

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she was a newbie in fourth grade. in high school she would write my english reports for some cash exchange and then she would be mad because i would get the one with the higher grade. we have the same exact laugh and we can't stop when we get going. we can't beat each other at arm wrestling either.